The Dilemma...!

What shall I define the state I'm in right now, I totally have no idea. Being judged, squeezing in some ME time for French lessons, endless calls throughout the day. People holding grudges on me because I'm busy with family stuff. Family influences and opinions whirling in my mind forcing me to decide but then they say it is your choice. Ignoring some issues and feeling ashamed for not replying back. Can't be around my friends for some time because I always get tangled with something, and myself escaping the pressure by blogging.

*M (my sister) calling*

I pick it up and the conversation goes this way:

K: Asalum 3alaikum w ra7mat Allah.

M: W 3alaikum ilsalam, did I just wake you up.

K: No, I woke up few hours ago.

M: You sound soooo tired and exhausted.

K: No, I'm not.

M: Well, your voice says so.

K: !!!!!!

She called me about 2-3 hours after I woke up. She knew I was tired while I tried to cover up. Well, it seems that they know me better and maybe I'm just so tired but wont admit it.

Tired of thinking, tired of worrying about people, tired of deciding, tired of trying to fit things in and find out that I always have to postpone them, tired of giving people chances but they are never worth their promises.

I can say all that, but I'm HOPEFUL, no matter how much tired I can be, if I weren't doing these things it wont be me at all.

A thank you to all who is supporting me and helping me by standing by my side. It means a lot and I can't even be thankful enough.

On the Bulletin Board:

- Aunt has an Angiograph next week and I would probably have to be there, because I was the one who contacted the doctor.

- My feet are always cold, is it the weather...?

- For some reason, to keep feeling good about myself, I keep dressing up for every outing.

- I got 32/40 in my 1st French test. Bad, although some people think otherwise.

Stay tuned,

My Passion... My Dream...

About or more than six months ago, a recurring idea kept whirling in my head. What if I studied culinary arts? What if I got a diploma or a certificate in gourmet cooking? What if I can chop onions like real chefs do? maybe learn to master cracking an egg with one hand or elegently peal potatoes? What if?... What if?... What if?...

Every once in a while, I'd check Le Cordon Bleu's website and dream of the day I will join them. I was even thinking if I never got the chance to receive a well renowned diploma/certificate, on worst case scenario, I'd hop in a plane, fly to Canada, stay with my nephews and attend short courses for few hours. I really can't wait for that to happen. But then an Idea popped into my head, I was thinking, since Abu Dhabi has become the center of art in the Middle East. I'm talking about so many things under development in this small city. Cooking is simply art itself. What would happen if Abu Dhabi hosted Le Cordon Bleu somewhere around in the peninsula. Well, I believe Abu Dhabi can do it, it just needs maybe time and people to consider it. It would be a great idea since it will be the first in the middle east and the Arab world itself.

Am I dreaming so much? It's OK, well dreams are for free and I'm aware that maybe my dreams will come true someday.

Before leaving for the trip to Bombai, I checked the list of movies I wanted to watch. However, they would have been released while I was away. So, I decided that I will have to wait and rent them some day. To my luck, I wasn't tired enough to sleep for 3 hours back home, so I decided to watch whatever they were viewing on the plane, one of the movies was Julie and Julia. Yes, you guessed it right, it is about COOKING!

Enjoy the trailer:

On the Bulletin Board:

- Helping my sister furnish her home. She is moving to a new place.

- Missing my friends.

- The weather is soooo good, I find myself wearing winter clothes then suffocating an changing to something less warming (t-shirt).

- I need to get back to my health routine.

- It bugs me to see people still doing that. Wearing jackets and shawls ...etc over the Abaya.

Stay tuned,

Tuning on old notes ��

Before leaving on the trip to Bombay, I was so psyched on the fact that old songs are the real ones and I shall start downloading old songs along with new ones and update my itunes library. So, I started with Abdalkreem, then Ruwaished and Nawal. I stopped there. I can't stop listening to their songs ever since I downloaded them.

The other day, my sister and I went to Dubai for some business matter and a meeting. I grabbed Lime Sparkle (my old ipod) and plugged it on iTrip. I believe the only thing we kept listening to were Abdulkareem's old songs.

The idea of going back to the old libraries on so many singers is to view and compare the difference between their performance back then and now. To me, they excelled before and became more commercialized nowadays. That doesn't mean that the new songs in the market are not good at all but I guess the words of the old songs had better meanings and better rhythm.

For the days when I miss my childhood, for the days when viewing photo albums filled with black and white or sepia photos, for the days when I'd sit around and ask anyone to repeat or tell me a story about the old days, and for the days I wish I was born before that to glimpse at how they lived, I always go back to those archived libraries.

They actually became very me lately, for the fact that whoever listens to my ipod would think, what dusty crap do you listen to or have on this tiny mp3 holder.

Will keep you with one of my favorite songs by Abdalkreem.

On the Bulletin Board:

- Mabrook 3alaikum ilra7mah. "Allahum 9ayban naf3an"

- I've made a decision and I'm waiting for an answer.

- I have to get back to the routine I started for sometime ago which demolished ever since I went and came back from Bombay.

- Our new maid messed up my organized wardrobe and I feel so down when I look at it and try to reorganize it all over again.

- I'm helping my sister furnish her new home, it is sooo exciting.

- I always wonder, how many silent readers do I have, if there were any. If you are hiding somewhere, comment plz or email me. Yes, I'm a curious person.

Stay tuned,